Yes,Another Bloody Blog.

"Like flies to wanton boys,we are to the gods.they kill us for their sport"

2009-02-19T04:30:00.000-08:00

Everything in life makes so much more sense now.
"It's not warm and cozy down here and I don't think I can kid myself with it".
I've fallen out of it.The image of life where Life meant family,where it meant love.I think I understand it better now,eventhough in an existentialist sort of way,but I understand LIFE.
Life,is survival.
You're thrown into this world one day,nobody asks you if you want to exist,and you have to survive "life" because ideological and religious agendas are so well bred into you that you believe you have no right to take your life.I'm thrown into this world without my consent and I'm taken out of it without my consent again.
Does it ever occur to us,that we might die at some point in time when we actually want to live life?
Perhaps yes,all of us go through that.
The thing is,I want my life back.I want to live.I want to look at my pictures,like other pictures and see a happy person..but when I look at my pictures,I see someone who isn't happy,primarily because,I can tell my feelings better than you lot.
I had a life,where I had an identity,a family and a boyfriend.
I lost my identity,when I sub-consciously erased the exterior of it.you look at me today and you look at me when I was happy,and you realise how I've used what I am now to cover up what I really am today.
Someone who doesent care about appearance suddenly worries about looking alright,someone who LOVES her long tresses,just gets them trimmed,eventhough she has an extreme fear of haircuts and hair salons.Someone who despises makeup,starts wearing it.
I can kid myself and say,well,I guess I've learnt how to be a girl but no,I've learned how to hide myself behind an exterior.
When I look at myself,I look at a stranger,whos not happy in her life.
My dad is so far away,he is so far away that I might not be close to him anytime soon and I swear I want my father,he's responsible for most of this,but I don't blame him.I guess thats how I love.I love my father,and I didn't realise it untill he was gone.too far away to actually know how he is perhaps,the one person I love the most.
Yes,I think I love him the most,because what I feel for him,I dont feel for anyone else,despite a sense of betrayal.
And with time,I think I'm drifting apart from everyone I love.
I don't know if shery and I will be together.I don't want him to hurt me..and I think If I want that,I'd have to hurt myself.In any case,I'm alone.without him too.
It hurts.
and I have nothing to turn back to,nothing to look forward to,and nobody to hug me right now and tell me its going to be okay,even if they dont believe it.

So then it all comes down to survival.I cant fix anything about my life,I can only survive it,irrespective of the fact that I dont want to survive it.

I guess I'll have to start blogging now :)

2008-07-25T14:45:00.000-07:00

My life is in tatters.
I dont think im going to uni this year,my house is a mess.my parents are broke,my family is falling apart,my boyfriend is upset about his job,i have to leave my country and i dont know anything about my own life,i dont envision a future.

I just dont want anything,Please God.just keep me with him.i dont want anything from life.

.
.
Nothing else.

I am ENGAGED.

2008-04-08T09:14:00.000-07:00

SO,Hira Khan shows up wearing a t-shirt that says "IM ENGAGED",Sarah,(look up archives for info) recently got MARRIED to ali,madame 'n' whos name i canNOT take due to her private issues has gotten rishtofied in the last two weeks.
WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO?!
these women,their hardly 19,they're babies forGodsake.Mariam's mom,under societal pressure wants her to get married after a levels.i mean i feel i belong to a RURAL society.its maad!
these people apparently are supposed to be the whos-who of Lahore and these women,the 'babes' and their getting married just after school!
hell.Not that im trying to imply getting married so early or equivalent,is wrong.its okay,i mean..your entitled to get married now,legally speaking but..have you seriously looked at the size of your brain honeypunch?
erm..i dont know,its just weird.not that im not happy for them,sarah is my pal and so are the others but,its just distortive.
All i've been hearing is in-laws,romantic weather,romantic weather,rain,love,in-laws,'distractions, and..the grand finale...BABIES!?
uff..
i think i need something
yeah,i need lums right now,so send me the darned acceptance pleaaase?

else i un-popularise you via my little insignificant blog,who nobody reads?
chalo,i can vent it out atleast.

ALL I NEED IS A COUPLE OF As AND THE RED BRICK BUILDING,

On second thoughts,i could sacrifice all of this for looveee.
ALL WE NEED IS LOVE,AINT IT?

...
..
.i'm beginning to lose it.all
like i ever had it?
uff.
frustrating..

though i migghhht start blogging.
miggght,you see i'm this lonely individual who listens to everyone but cant make people listen to them..yeah.i am very much of that.and i wont destroy this wonderful piece of 'literature' i just wrote with my blabbing.
im a literary something!
yeah baby!

My bestest friend.

2007-07-24T08:29:00.000-07:00

You know whos my best friend?since 2005?
its my bloggy.
cause i being the one who everyone can easily take for granted,can actually take THIS ONE THING for granted!!
yaaaay!
thats what true friends are for :p

muah.
i'll talk to you more from now on.i know you love me.
i think i love you too.
but i want you to love me more,i like it. :)

Things to do

2007-07-24T04:51:00.000-07:00

Watch khuda ke liye
Watch khuda ke liye
Watch khuda ke liye
Fail SAT.

2007-07-08T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hot topic these days,the lal masjid,jamia hafsa brigade.
Its actually interesting every six months the muslim world lands into one crisis or another.Its actually hillarious,not to forget terribly demeaning and equally frustrating.Why? because the very cause for such 'happenings' are people like the ghazi brothers,haywire ulemas and God knows which interpreters of islam who stand high on their claims and distort the concept of jihad to an extent that isnt even frustrating.its beyond that.
with reference to the lal masjid issue, point number one.

Jihad in the 'war' sense,is battle of a muslim force against a NON-MUSLIM army,hence jihad against the pakistani govt,nation,not really.Unless you imply that were muslims with an apparently low morale since we dont have raging jihadi fantasies nor the love to indulge in such horrendous displays of muslim unity and revokation of 'true islamic concepts' (penned by OURSELVES,mind you) and resort to portraying Islam through decent talks and negotiations.

Point number two.

Once you have set foot and said your going to jihad infidels like your government and nation,you dont flee burka-clad the moment your at gunpoint.you dont surrender either.if your so true to your cause and so confident in your interpretation (which mind you should have nothing to do with personal benefit),you fight and die,hence are martyred.
You do not acquire martyrdom via brainwashing people to fight for YOU and if the need arises for YOUR god and holding innocent people hostage and using them as a war strategy.

Its hillarious that such people have the guts to demand a 'safe passage' and surrender (if you dont use the word surrender) asking you to let them and their freaking pseudo-jihadi militants to escape any possibility of judicial arrest or a trial.
and when such people sit and speak from the other end and have done so,since almost a week,there are people who demand for negotiations with them,and even better people who suggest them to be pardoned.
pardoned for what?
For portraying not only the state but the religious community as radical jihadi cum terrorists who are a threat to national security and moreso,world peace?
Pardoned for bringing such dishonour to a sacred religion,moulding its key concepts into something so ugly,so disastrous.the opposite of what it stands for?
PARDON THEM?forheavensake?
Negotiate with people who have God knows how many and who hostage?negotiate with people who turn your goddamned capital city into a living hell?People who have probabbly brainwashed thousands of people worldwide into thinking of your religion and your country a radical killing machine?Who have polluted the name of God and His Prophet?their identity and their teachings?
KILL THEM.i say
kill them,and that too publically and let others like them know they cannot harass the name of this country or this religion.They cannot go around using the name of God to put forth their personal dirty politics or their distorted barbaric brains.
I would have to say I do agree with those who arent in favour of the 'operation' against these alleged leaders of truth.There is little excuse to justify this entire change of a residential area into a battlefeild with gunshots and explosions everywhere,but if this helps to break these people,lets do it.
Lets not only save those inside,but also those who also seem to fall into the same trap of barbarism in the name of religion.
Lets.

2007-06-13T10:22:00.000-07:00

i was just reading my description and i realised how untrue it is.
i did have one person id talk everything to.lost them for some time but that doesent mean i never had them.
hmm.
but thats what i thought at that point in time maybe.that i lost them cos' i never had them..yeap.maybe that but its weird because i dont even remember telling them everything about me.
and its even more weird because they remember it even today.all the stupid talk.
heh.

life is beautiful. :)
no points for guessing who the 'them' is :p

.
im so..something i cant think of right now.

2007-03-23T05:04:00.000-07:00

The most neglected thing in my life is?
THE BBBBLOOOOGG!
:d..and it isnt THAT bad.
anywhoo.its WARTIME!

2006-09-16T02:22:00.000-07:00

Somebodaaay said upppdate and its too flattering to find out people still read this thing.even if the owner of it doesentt :P
and therefore i shall updatus.
OOKAYY.so since the last post MMMUCHH has been up with me the most significant being that i am no longer a science student.Yeah,it pains.But then when you come to think of it,i mean.yeah that.Studies is studies and all study is serious.
I didnt make it to kinnaird.HAH!
well,frankly.i dont know how to put it.i dont even know if i'm happy i didnt.but well,its really funny as to WHY I didnt make it and for the one moment i think of why i didnt make it,it really makes me proud of myself.for the wonderful interview that i gave,excerpts from which i SHALL put here since i think i owe this blog and the few people who read it,a nice juicy conversation.which might not be as juicy to anyone else as juicy it were to me.butt i'm still going to put it uup.

Enter I.
I eyes three fat teachers (one of which is a b-i-t...yeah and i have enough reason for calling her that) and little fatima zaka(also a lecturer i sort of got to know lately)
I says Asalamolaikum
fat lady in purple: ek second (since she isnt done with the previous candidate)
fat lady in purple (is free now): Pehlay tou ek baat sunain.ap interview daine ayeen hain ye kaise dress main?
I: (confused.BECAUSE ALL THAT COULD HAVE GONE WRONG WOULD HAVE BEEN THE SLEEVLESS SHALWAR KAMEES and considering the amount of tight-fitted,lingerie shower masturbater girls there ARE in that 'instituition' i'd say a sleevless isnt much.besides,she had no bloody excuse to tell me the 'rules' of the college when all i'd come for,was an interview :P) excuse me?
fat lady in purple: ye aise dresses tou humare college mein allowed nahe?
I: (smiles) main aapke college ke tou nahe.interview daine ayee hoon
fat lady in purple:haan tou ye bat sunein ye humare college ke rules ke nahe hai baat.
I: (wanting to chup-o-fy her) i am sorry but abhe tou i am not from this college,once i get into this instituition i'm sure i will know the rules better,as of now im here for an interview.
fat lady in purple: baithain
and then they cant find my form and i tell her my grades and then she asks me for my candidate number
I: jo aapke chit pey tha?
fat lady in purple: candidate number batayen ap soyi huwi hain?
I:( wanting to kick her in the *beep*) AUNTY ap mujhe batayen gi konssa candidate number to mein apko booloon gi naa?
fat lady in purple: apne olvels ka bataen aur baat sunain mein apki aunty nahee hoon.
and I laughs I's ass off.

and well naturally when my parents got to know about this whole thing they didnt want me to go to a college where the heads of departments were fat divorced ladies either(yeah thats mean.and meant to be :D).
and naturally that fat AUNTIE would have made sure i didnt make it.plus my result wasnt that good either but it definitely ISNT the basis on which i didnt make it considering all the other factOrsss.
and SO i landed in lgs defence and changed my subjects.
well,now here is it.
i've got law,sociology,economics,literature and urdu.
yes.FIVE subjects.you can open your mouths.(if there ARE people reading this)
ohh and yesss i have blondes in my class(figurative;ofcourse) but their still bbbloondddd.
sociology teacher is cute and bongi.shes young and she prepares the things before class.and thats sweet(aww).
and okay.i know why lgs defence girls are blond.
anyway,my little girls are not going to lgs defence FOR SURE :d

and life is being all good with me.its so smooth i'm getting suspicious.
naww.
its good and it should be this way.
okay i'll say something i REALLY want to say right now.
i love my boyfriend and i love God and i cant thank Him enough for all of this.
:)

2006-08-26T12:15:00.000-07:00

Alright so it was earlier this year that we got to know human biology for o level students wanting to take up medicine later was BANNED and pure biology became a must for anyone interested in getting into a pakistani medical school.
well,a month later they told us we were exempted from this new 'policy' incase we opted for fsc as our pre-medical cos' we were to give our finals the same year the 'policy' had been introduced.
A levels,naturally is a tough choice if you want to get into a decent medical school (which incase means King Edward Medical College) unless you would like to get into a private institution on self finance basis.
And now that you go and ask these bastards for an equivalence certificate,they refuse to give you one of the science category,without which you cannot do you fsc.
why?because you have human biology.
welll.then you tell them this was totally unexpected and you WOULD if the policy suggests give your pure bio in november to which they suggest you take a year off and apply next year.

and yeah i know the aga khan matriculation board promotion story so i dont wanna hear that again.
im pissed.
and more pissed and surprised at myself.
and more pissed when amnah raza says i cannot apply for K.E if i do alevels? (this isnt confirmed news by the way.and isnt going to be before monday)
i hope it isnt true.
and even if it is,things are still messed up..not that i'd mention but still messed up.
im pretty low.and pretty pretty low.
and one of these days your going to find me at a chowk beating these asshole mangnay walay with my shoe.
i swear
i just want to shoot them all.all in one go.
YEAH.DIE!

AND THIS IS MY TEXT SIZE FROM NOW ON.

The Mariam Imtiaz chronicles (part -I)

2006-08-23T11:07:00.000-07:00

ALLRIGHT SO THIS IS POST RESULT TODAY AND SINCE SARAH WAS OVER AND WE FOUND STUFF OUT BY SURPIZE,WE WWERE NATURALLY THRILLED.AND A LITTLE MAD WITH SHOCK.
YES NEGATIVE SHOCK.
SO WE DECIDED TO INITIALLY JUST HAVE A GOOD CONVERSATION WITH THIS MARIAM BIBI BUT SINCE SHE HURT THE ALREADY ACHING SANU SO BAD SHE WANTED TO SLAM HER CELLPHONE INTO THE MONITOR,WE DECIDED TO,WELL TORTURE HER A LITTLE.
BUT SINCE WE'RE GOOD HEARTED PEOPLE,WE APOLOGIZED ONCE WE ANNOYED HER ENOUGH.

NOTE THAT :THE TWO OF US 'ACHING LADIES' WERE LAUGHING LIKE MAD THROUGHOUT THIS CONVERSATION.OF TRAUMA I SUPPOSE.

[05:56:01 PM] i yaam learn: result kya aya hay tumhara bibi?
[05:56:22 PM] You have just sent a Nudge!
[05:56:27 PM] i yaam learn: ?
[05:57:04 PM] You have just sent a Nudge!
[05:57:05 PM] You may not send a Nudge that often.
[05:57:22 PM] You have just sent a Nudge!
[05:57:38 PM] You have just sent a Nudge!
[05:57:56 PM] i yaam learn: yaar bolo na
[05:58:04 PM] i yaam learn: lets share it
[05:58:21 PM] i yaam learn: mariam
[05:58:24 PM] i yaam learn: kidher ho
[05:58:26 PM] i yaam learn: yaar
[05:58:38 PM] i yaam learn: zain se baad mein baat ker lena
[05:58:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: mujhe nahin patta chala
[05:58:42 PM] i yaam learn: :@
[05:58:59 PM] i yaam learn: yaar the result is out
[05:59:13 PM] eCsTaTiC: i noe
[05:59:14 PM] eCsTaTiC: apna batao
[05:59:19 PM] i yaam learn: chal phut
[05:59:29 PM] i yaam learn: anyway.
[05:59:36 PM] i yaam learn: ramsha ka kia aya
[05:59:41 PM] i yaam learn: kisi ka pata hao
[05:59:44 PM] i yaam learn: hai?
[05:59:47 PM] eCsTaTiC: yar u *BEEP BEEP BEEP*
[05:59:48 PM] eCsTaTiC: is it true?
[05:59:56 PM] eCsTaTiC: u got *BEEEEEP*

INTENTIONAL MELODRAMA BEGINS.

[06:00:10 PM] i yaam learn: hello?
[06:00:13 PM] i yaam learn: your getting me?
[06:00:20 PM] i yaam learn: yaar kidher ho?
[06:00:22 PM] i yaam learn: :S
[06:00:23 PM] eCsTaTiC: yes
[06:00:29 PM] eCsTaTiC: yahin hun
[06:00:42 PM] i yaam learn: -)
[06:01:01 PM] i yaam learn: yaar if your busy tell me
[06:01:06 PM] i yaam learn: !!

ENTER INTENTIONAL BITCHY COMMENT.

[06:01:22 PM] i yaam learn: atleast apna chupanaa hai tou kisi aur ka hee bata do
[06:01:23 PM] eCsTaTiC: ?
[06:01:42 PM] eCsTaTiC: kya bataon?
[06:01:42 PM] eCsTaTiC: mujhe patta hee nahi hai
[06:01:48 PM] eCsTaTiC: trust me

ENTER CREATED MELODRAMA THAT NEVER ACTUALLY TOOK PLACE

[06:02:04 PM] i yaam learn: mazhar saab said you were rude to him
[06:02:14 PM] i yaam learn: but dont worrry. i clarified things
[06:02:36 PM] i yaam learn: i told him you probabbly, were not lookin forward to what he told you
[06:02:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: yar meri nahin hui un se
[06:02:50 PM] eCsTaTiC: i swera

ENTER SERIES OF LIES.

[06:02:51 PM] i yaam learn: ohh sorry
[06:02:52 PM] eCsTaTiC: se
[06:02:54 PM] i yaam learn: that wasnt for you
[06:02:58 PM] eCsTaTiC: im mariam
[06:03:02 PM] i yaam learn: acha yaar.i trust you
[06:03:07 PM] eCsTaTiC: den?
[06:03:08 PM] i yaam learn: :)
[06:03:13 PM] eCsTaTiC: i dont noe anything
[06:03:14 PM] i yaam learn: best of luck
[06:03:23 PM] eCsTaTiC: thnx
[06:03:35 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz tell me is he in office rite noe?
[06:03:39 PM] eCsTaTiC: i wanna noe my result
[06:03:43 PM] eCsTaTiC: plzzzz
[06:03:51 PM] eCsTaTiC: help me yar
[06:04:12 PM] i yaam learn: ill call him.wait
[06:04:16 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:04:22 PM] i yaam learn: he isnt picking up (we never tried the phone but that is true since office timings were over)
[06:04:24 PM] eCsTaTiC: thnx
[06:04:29 PM] eCsTaTiC: ask him my result plz
[06:04:34 PM] i yaam learn: ill try again.
[06:04:42 PM] eCsTaTiC: thnx
[06:04:53 PM] eCsTaTiC: lov u
[06:05:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: >
[06:05:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: .
[06:05:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: .
[06:05:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: .
[06:05:52 PM] i yaam learn: yaar
[06:06:00 PM] i yaam learn: pehle wala mila ke
[06:06:03 PM] i yaam learn: youve got
[06:07:01 PM] i yaam learn: koi bat nai yar
[06:07:06 PM] i yaam learn: itna bura to nahe hay
[06:07:14 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:07:16 PM] i yaam learn: im sure you can compensate it in your a levels
[06:07:42 PM] eCsTaTiC: bata kia hay
[06:07:51 PM] eCsTaTiC: boloooo
[06:07:59 PM] eCsTaTiC: ill die bef u tell me
[06:08:05 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz hurry up
[06:08:09 PM] i yaam learn: yaaar
[06:08:10 PM] eCsTaTiC: plzzz
[06:08:22 PM] i yaam learn: you had 2 As earlier
[06:08:25 PM] i yaam learn: now you have

i yaam learnin how to draave this world nutss babayyy goes offline.(INTENTIONALLY)

[06:10:58 PM] * Sarah___: hey:)
[06:10:59 PM] eCsTaTiC: resultttt
[06:11:04 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz mera koi bata de
[06:11:14 PM] eCsTaTiC: ill b reallygrateful to her
[06:11:15 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:11:23 PM] eCsTaTiC: hi
[06:11:28 PM] * Sarah___: hey just a sec..sna waqar is callin (LLIE)
[06:11:32 PM] eCsTaTiC: wat grades did u get
[06:11:46 PM] * * Sarah___ is now On The Phone
[06:11:55 PM] eCsTaTiC: k
[06:12:17 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!

ENTER ATTEMPT TO MAJORLY PISS HER OFF.

[06:12:31 PM] * Sarah___: amna got 5 as
[06:12:38 PM] * Sarah___: ..aur poochne do
[06:12:47 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz bata do kuch
[06:12:51 PM] * Sarah___: :
[06:12:54 PM] eCsTaTiC: mine?
[06:13:01 PM] eCsTaTiC: im dying yar'
[06:13:03 PM] eCsTaTiC: and urs?
[06:13:15 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:13:28 PM] * Sarah___: mariam aziz , alja , maria , umul bunin got 8 As
[06:13:46 PM] * Sarah___: amen 4 As
[06:14:02 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:14:15 PM] * Sarah___: rabia aur tumhara sunn k im shocked
[06:14:21 PM] * Sarah___: :S
[06:14:26 PM] * Sarah___: chal tralk to you later
[06:14:36 PM] eCsTaTiC: y?
[06:14:38 PM] eCsTaTiC: nahin sara plz
[06:14:40 PM] eCsTaTiC: tell me
[06:14:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz
[06:14:50 PM] eCsTaTiC: tumko kasam lagey batao na
[06:14:54 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:14:57 PM] * Sarah___: kis ki kasam
[06:15:01 PM] eCsTaTiC: meri
[06:15:03 PM] * Sarah___: mangetar tou raha nahi mera
[06:15:12 PM] eCsTaTiC: sara main mer rahi hun yar
[06:15:13 PM] * Sarah___: nahi yaar chal koi nahi
[06:15:18 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz stop joking
[06:15:28 PM] eCsTaTiC: i dono wana create a scene in my office
[06:15:35 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz plz plz bata do
[06:15:40 PM] * Sarah___: i shall tell you yor result wen you have a sweet wid you
[06:15:42 PM] eCsTaTiC: jaisa bhi hai bata do yar
[06:15:44 PM] eCsTaTiC: plzzz
[06:15:59 PM] eCsTaTiC: yarrrrrr
[06:16:01 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz bata do
[06:16:02 PM] * Sarah___: yaar rabia k hain 4 As
[06:16:10 PM] * Sarah___: happy?
[06:16:12 PM] eCsTaTiC: and mine?
[06:16:15 PM] * Sarah___: n tumhare
[06:16:15 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz bata do
[06:16:26 PM] eCsTaTiC: ?
[06:16:28 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz plz plz
[06:16:59 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:17:09 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz
[06:17:09 PM] * Sarah___: pehle k 2 A's
[06:17:11 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz plz
[06:17:24 PM] eCsTaTiC: ive started 2 cry i swear
[06:17:28 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!
[06:17:45 PM] * Sarah___: mariam
[06:17:45 PM] eCsTaTiC just sent you a Nudge!

ENTER ATTEMPT TO MAKE HER HATE SARAH AHMED FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE.

[06:17:51 PM] * Sarah___: tumhara koi U nahi hai yaaaaaar
[06:17:54 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz sara kitni minten karao gi
[06:17:55 PM] * Sarah___: im so happy fpr you
[06:18:05 PM] eCsTaTiC: kya????
[06:18:06 PM] * Sarah___: hey sanaz onl9
[06:18:20 PM] * Sarah___: uss se conv mein addd kertey hain
[06:18:43 PM] eCsTaTiC: main ne sana ka achar dalna hai?
[06:18:50 PM] eCsTaTiC: tell me my grades
[06:18:50 PM] eCsTaTiC: plzzzz
[06:19:01 PM] eCsTaTiC: :'(
[06:19:11 PM] eCsTaTiC: ;plz yar dont do dis 2 me
[06:19:12 PM] i yaam learnin to draave this world nutss babayyy has been added to the conversation.
[06:19:15 PM] eCsTaTiC: acha gimme ur no
[06:19:17 PM] * Sarah___: heyyy sana
[06:19:32 PM] eCsTaTiC: hi sana
[06:19:38 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz tell me my result
[06:19:40 PM] i yaam learn: heyy babiess
[06:19:41 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz plz
[06:19:43 PM] i yaam learn: kese ho
[06:19:50 PM] eCsTaTiC has left the conversation.

START NEW CONVERSATION WHERE SANU/SARAH REALISE THEY'VE PISSED HER OFF ENOUGH

[06:20:08 PM] eCsTaTiC: ok take care i am leaving
[06:20:13 PM] * Sarah___: baat sunooo
[06:20:16 PM] * Sarah___: mariammmmmmm
[06:20:17 PM] * Sarah___: yaar
[06:20:24 PM] eCsTaTiC: han?
[06:20:25 PM] * Sarah___: i was kidding and so was sana
[06:20:32 PM] * Sarah___: hume tumhara result nahi pata
[06:20:36 PM] * Sarah___: ash karo
[06:20:38 PM] eCsTaTiC: matlab?
[06:20:47 PM] eCsTaTiC: kya
[06:20:47 PM] eCsTaTiC: ?
[06:20:47 PM] eCsTaTiC: batao na
[06:20:49 PM] eCsTaTiC: result batao
[06:20:53 PM] * Sarah___: aur suno
[06:20:57 PM] * Sarah___: hasti raha kero
[06:20:59 PM] * Sarah___: :)
[06:21:05 PM] eCsTaTiC: plz jaldi batao my cars here
[06:21:07 PM] eCsTaTiC: matlab kya hai
[06:21:12 PM] eCsTaTiC: result aa gaya hai
[06:21:12 PM] * Sarah___: yaar we don no
[06:21:17 PM] * Sarah___: i swera
[06:21:18 PM] eCsTaTiC: sam celled me up
[06:21:28 PM] * Sarah___: samantha?(LOSER.SHE KNOWS WHO SAM IS :p)
[06:21:31 PM] * Sarah___: :-O
[06:21:33 PM] eCsTaTiC: thnx ppl for making me feel so shitty
[06:21:35 PM] * Sarah___: hows she now
[06:21:39 PM] * Sarah___: hehhe
[06:21:42 PM] eCsTaTiC: who?
[06:21:42 PM] * Sarah___: sorry yaaar
[06:21:47 PM] * Sarah___: anyway best ov luck
[06:21:55 PM] eCsTaTiC: amna se bhi baat hui hai meri yar
[06:22:00 PM] * Sarah___: InshaAllah youll rock
[06:22:00 PM] * Sarah___: ;)
[06:22:05 PM] eCsTaTiC: they noe their result
[06:22:09 PM] * Sarah___: yeah
[06:22:12 PM] eCsTaTiC: inshAllah
[06:22:14 PM] eCsTaTiC: bye bye
[06:22:20 PM] * Sarah___: bye
[06:22:31 PM] eCsTaTiC: bye

2006-08-22T12:09:00.000-07:00

LGS re-opens tomorrow.
Siblings are feeling a little too bad.say they arent bbut they are.Brother has to say bye-bye to everyday football..which by the way has been routine for about four years now maybe?
but you never know.he comes up with such resolutions all the time.He's got a haircut.Thank goodness.He freaked out when i went to see him in the shower.no not because he was nude.
Because hes too much of a girly these days.
No but jokes apart,he is a little cautious of who sees him naked these days.really.He asks me to go out of his room when hes changing.which is unlike my brother who liked to come to my room and change cos' it pissed nida.
anyway.I love my brother even if all he talks of ninety-nine percent of times is shit and butt.
I've got loads of interviews in the coming week.Not like i'm interested in all of them.
I'm going to kinnaird.
haww.
yes.
and i really really hope rabiya is too.I need company for pete's sake!
and i'm over with freaking out about going to kinnaird.well almost.
instructor bibi is going to get her butt kicked real soon,
i dont like her.
REALLY.

2006-08-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

Theres not much i have to write here anymore.
but heyy.
i yaam learnin to drive and tis be coool.
i dont like the instructor bibi very much cos' she likes to double control my car.
but i yaam learnin howw too drive!!

I want to SAY something.

2006-07-31T06:52:00.000-07:00

This is a confession borowwed from Misha's 4/5 year old cousin who is predicted to turn gay.

" I'M DEATH "

hahahahaa.

I'M DEATH.

2006-07-13T01:04:00.000-07:00

its been over six months since they're gone and I still cant come to terms with the fact that they arent alive.
I keep thinking they're on a vacation.
I'm sorry.I cant believe they're gone and everytime someone mentions it,it looks..it sounds so fake.

Sometimes I really think sixteen years in this world are more than enough.I think I should move on..to the other phase of existance..
and if I dont like that too,I should not exist at all.

return of the owner of the red underwear.

2006-07-05T07:51:00.000-07:00

This is so cute,palestenians after the airstrike.
they're watching football by the way.

and this one i took..and i quite like it :)

and isnt it strange how amidst the new cool heroes nobody likes the red chaddi wala superman?but let me type down the obsession of this particular seven year old who is SO in love with superman that he thinks he can fly like him.And so one day he gets into his superman gear and jumps off the ceiling thinking he can fly like his best hero and breaks his leg and when he finally recovered,he refused to believe he could not fly mustering that all he needed was a little more practice and thus,threw the little boy who worked at his place down the ceiling..assuring him that he COULD fly and would save him.
and then
jumped himself.

and both of them broke their ribs.

good heavens..

Good old I

2006-06-16T05:44:00.000-07:00

Good old I got a haircut after the LONGESSSST time.
Good old I is supposed to be looking nice.
Good old I has a little difficulty in seeing.
Good old I is happy
:D
oh and good old I is bathing regularly these days :d

2006-06-13T12:51:00.000-07:00

so the deal is..
i dont like talking to this blog anymore.
i want to rant.and i want to cry bad.but i dont know how to say it to this asshole.
I'm not comfortable with my blog.
i need to write so bad but i dont know what to write.
I am depressed and in dire need of help or i might suicide.
no thats not a threat
why?
because there isnt anyone whos reading this and will potentially feel threatened.
i really need to die.
and if someone thinks i'm joking.well,
i dont feel any lighter and i wish someone would just listen to all i have to say and then hug me.
and listen and hug me again
:(
and that someone would make me feel human and existant again
or someone would slap me now and put me to sleep
or give me a lexotinel?(if that is how you spell it)
and for heavensake i dont even care if that isnt how you spell it.BECAUSE I SPELL IT THAT WAY.

Har kisi ko.

2006-06-09T00:27:00.000-07:00

Har kisi ko mukammal jahan nahin milta
kahin zamee kahin aasma nahin milta.

oh and yes,i might suicide once i find a painless way to
lets listen to roobaroo.

2006-06-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

I really want something bad to happen to me and i want to see how many people cry and i want to know which ones really cry alot.
I want that.and i want to know how it feels to have so many people worried for you,not for you to be pretty,not for your weight,not for your intellect,not for your conduct,just for you.

i dont like my life.
i dont like anyones life.
i want something bad to happen to me.something which doesent hurt me but makes people cry for me.
i want people to cry for me.

and i know thats mean.
BUT I WANT IT.

2006-05-26T13:27:00.000-07:00

"you are one neutral bitch."

says alot about what i have been,lately.

2006-05-15T11:39:00.000-07:00

ONE DAY PRIOR TO MY HISTORY EXAM.

Nida: Camera kahan hai?
Sanu (sleeping) :haan?
Camera kaahan hai bhaiii?
woo...1857 main.
oh bibi.wheres the bloody cam!
tchh..1857 main! bohot log hain wahaan!
GET UP AND TELL ME WHERE THE BLOODY CAM IS!
(frowns in sleep) i told you 1857 main tha!

so incase i lose it,you know who to blame.

hello bunny

2006-05-07T11:25:00.000-07:00

alright so tomorrow it is.
it is that my everyday visit to chouefat (?) begins.(no not studying there.it is our edexcel ka exam centre)
bleukh.
maths 1 it is tomorrow at 3,my mom is freaked out because i think i should sleep till twelve tomorrow.now i dont want to fall asleep in the exam hall (ref: one month old dream) nor do i want to end up doing the first page in green color pencil and just that and then going to california(??) to reappear for maths (??) (ref: two day old dream).
i think i went to california in that dream chiefely because i dream of my good,exam-free days now and since disneyland=california,hence,california it is.
wow.
and the bad part is that i am on the verge of dumping my new warid prepay because it wontt workk :(

and the funny part is,mallo's twenty year old boyfriend gives his o-levels with us.
hahahahahaha.shit.

and the sad part is is is that i have very few chocolate reserves left and and that my a.c died on me and and that i am typing this blog entry in a room that has to be the HOTTEST ROOM in the WORLD wearing socks (??)
err.
my card wont feeed :(

:D

2006-05-01T16:09:00.000-07:00

I LOVE this man

and i cant help it.

or lets just say i dont want to?

2006-04-18T11:36:00.000-07:00

its happening to me aaagainn but I want to come out of it sane this time,please.

2006-04-11T12:34:00.000-07:00

The one advantage of having a blog is that you can always count on it to be someone whos going to listen to all your crap.ie; it can act like a dumb best friend (ignoring the fact that i do not believe in best friends)
:)

Sarah Quotes.

2006-02-23T12:50:00.000-08:00

Honestly,I dont understand why this woman and I did not get along well two years ago.I really dont..and I'm not talking of some forty year old fat-assed woman.I talk about this very hot woman,namely Sarah Ahmed.
You cannot help loving this woman and because she has brightened my life with her adorably stupid notions and questions,I cant help but mention an episode here.(of course it would have been better if we had videos)
So it is I,Misha and her skimming through our Pakistan studies course book when we come across something that looks like this:

and Sarah points towards the country presently Bangladesh,"oye,wasnt this a part of Pakistan?"
Sanu: Yeah Sarah.
Sarah: to phir ye wahan kahan se gaya?
Misha: Hain?
Sarah: Matlab ye pakistan ka part tha na?
Sanu: Par Sarah ab nahi hai.They gained political independence after the 1971 ki war?
Misha: Yeah 71 ki war ke bad hi.thats Bangladesh now.
Sarah: Oh okay..

Some five minutes later..

Sarah whispers:baat suno,their independece day isnt fourteenth august right?
Misha:Yeah,isnt.
Sanu: unka to tabhi hoga na jub wo Independent huey Sarah? 71 mey?
Misha: haan.

Two minutes later..

Sarah: Meri bat suno..
an anonymous hm?
Sarah,very worried and in the littl-est possible voice: to phir ye wahan kese chala gaya? *points to present Bangladesh*
Misha and Sanu burst out laughing.and they laugh and laugh and almost fall to the ground laughing

Misha: Sarah,pata hai wo huwa kya.wo idher hi tha punjab ke sath jura huwa.phir pakistani koam ne use dhakka mara.phir wo dhakka mar mar ke yahan le aye *points to delhi*,phir yahan se Indians ney bhe help ki aur dhakka marte marte calcutta ke paas chala gaya

All three laugh like fucking insane people.
Misha,laughing: Fuck you.did you just ask us that?
Sarah,blushing: it has to remain between us.
Misha: I swear ask miss ghazala ke ye wahan kese gaya
Sarah: shut up *laughing and blushing like anything*

five minutes after the restoration of Insanity
Sarah whispers to me: just tell me quietly
Sanu:hmm?
Sarah:why is it colored green then?
and Sanu bursts out laughing again tells misha everything
Sanu: Sarah wo partition se pehle ke diagram hai

and the three of them laugh their way to death.
and again..HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh and PS: Hugging and kissing her awake when she doesent know there are two other people in the room is also one of the things I would recommend to everyone.
hahahaha.oh dear

I want to be ugly.

2006-02-11T23:37:00.000-08:00

Getting a sound card re-installed can be one of the most exciting experiences during the life of a computer.
FINALLY,you get to hear all the songs you had saved once upon a time and had been eshroud under thick dust for ages,FINALLY you get to hear the gay msn winks once again and FINALLY you can tell people that your computer is NOT dumb.
But it doesent last for long.Soon you have to listen to songs you hate but your sister likes.

AND THAT INCLUDES 'YOUR BEAUTIFUL' BY JAMES BLUNT.
now,the song might be good to other people,but anyone who has experienced sharing a room will agree to the fact that people love to listen to their favourite songs OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.So,whether your brushing your teeth or reading,getting dressed to go out or just wandering,sleeping or preparing to sleep you hear a tiny little squeaky voice,telling you, 'your beautiful'.
:
and you pray to God,all day and all night and all day and all night to please give you a husband who thinks your ugly because hearing how beautiful you are again and again and again only makes you want to kick them speakers in their balls.

and when your sister gets over the mr. blunt phase,you have a neighbour/friend come to you and ask your sister if she has 'wo james blunt ka gaana'.

and the next thing you hear is a five feet four point five inch woman jump off the stairs and commit suicide.
Other than that,Ive been having dreams where im chasing/fighting people all the time.
and that isnt pleasant too,

MAY GOD SAVE ALL YOU SANE PEOPLE FROM THE ANGUISH OF MR JAMES BLUNT AND LARA CROFT LIKE NIGHTMARES.

SO LONG,IF I LIVE.

2006-01-30T11:33:00.000-08:00

Thanks to everyone who makes this special.

and a very happy birthday to me and my blog and abdul's too,may the three of us live happily and in peace.

cheers!

and I have two birthday cards of the same kind which label me an 'UNPREDICTABLE MOOD SWINGING DEVICE' from two different people.
haha

Did I say january has LOTS of birthdays?

2006-01-26T05:33:00.000-08:00

To a mom who wants discipline around the house and is the least obedient of that law,who can shout like any maula jutt and has always threatened to bury her children alive if they got bad grades.To a mom who people assume is my sister,who hates to think her daughter is sixteen and who likes to listen to beejees.To a nice mom with the sweatest heart.
Happy Birthday

According to her son, "when mama's angry"

We like to say

2006-01-18T05:44:00.000-08:00

Oh you are so beautiful I could eat a hat

so please lets meow

and dance the night away,

for you so beautiful my love,

that I could rip my heart for you,

I feel so little,teh greatness.

teh highness,

for I like to say things,that please you.

and lets just live together,

in a nice way,

for you so beautiful my love,my ugliness dances in the night.

-THIS POST IS MEANINGLESS,
AND MEANT TO BE.
:).

would you consider this an update?
yes?

Good old January.

2006-01-03T13:18:00.000-08:00

This post is only being made for the love of mani,the prettiest female on the face of earth.She who thinks every man who dances in Indian movies is Shahrukh khan,she who loves Knight rider,She who watches the wizard of oz,She who decided to get a study table on her third birthday and she who loves to tear her storybooks.
She beats me and she hits me.She calls me yucky too but eventually says Im 'very nice'.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY!

And since my post is technically a day after her barfday I shall take this opportunity to wish another adorable three year old namely Mahd Iqbal,born only twenty hours after the little fairy who has a crush on Michael.

HAPPY BARFDAY TO THE DUDD TOO.

-January is when you have all the goody barfdays-

PS: anybody who reads this entry and has the tiniest bit of love for the writer could pray for her exams on the nineth and twelfth of this month.

1-12-2005

2005-12-05T03:19:00.000-08:00

And the beauty of love is such
That even death could not part them.

2005-11-12T15:41:00.000-08:00

I hate somebody.
And they should know why, =(

2005-10-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

And so she comes out.Comes out from behind those thick layers of dust,from behind windows that had turned opaque,Her ugly hands touch the keys,she unlocks the door and comes outfrom her little dark room which she had decorated with disco balls.She has come out to cheer people,to see them smile once again,to jump,to laugh..and say..
"Why the fuck did she return!?"

Heh,(I thought I should write something "meaningful" on my blog too)
=D..thats as rotten as the description above.
Oh and I love everybody who missed me.

Cooler "digitallised" voices and constipated Indian songs

2005-10-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

You dont have to do that.
They keep attacking me..
like?
like everybody blames me for what goes on around here,I dont know it hurts
It shouldnt
but it does Sarah,It takes time to get used to it,I just feel people think I'm not worth the post
Sana..you really think so?
pata nahi sarah,I just want to give this sash back
Its an honour sana,you just cant do that..tellme you really think people talk of you like that?
Pata nahi Sarah..

*misha comes*
kyon ro rahay ho..
hmm?
I'm fine..we're just talking about the council..she says people think shes not worth it..
oh people think like that about me too sana,just dont give a fuck.

*marium Imtiaz joins in* "yeah dont care.."
acha chalo yaar maira mood nahi council ki baat karnay ka
*marium and misha go*

*Sarah and sanu smile at each other..lethargically*

After five minutes..

"AAAAAAAAA..."
Sarah looks at sanu,
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"
*Both of them run inside class*
"AAAp ki kashish.."-lethargic constipated voices..
and we find misha and marium singing it infront of the cooler.

Damnit I havent laughed so bad in days..Sir Sajid was terrified..I loved the look on his face in the shed.
damnit..damnit..*laughs like crazy*

Oh you ugly little thing!

2005-09-26T08:06:00.000-07:00

Okay so I feel the sensation to talk to you once again Mr blog of mine.
Ofcourse I was ignoring you...you damn little thing.
Heh,no I'm sorry because I've been too busy with work and school and everything to even think of writing here.But you understand that I did NOT miss you.
It is YOU who did.
hah!
So the datesheet is out.9th january I have the Islamiat paper and 12th the Urdu.I really need to work on urdu since I have recently endorsed a 'C' in my sendup.Things have been funny.The magazine is out.Everybody likes it.Everybody except the girl who worked like crazy for it i.e myself but I'm happy atleast I have been credited for my work.
My articles have been much appreciated,Sir Tawseef is being ultra sweet with me flattering me with the coolest compliments anybody has ever given me.Maryam Imtiaz has been a little pain but thats okay because I think I know how to deal with that.
Misha has been funny and talked of shery ALOT..Oh so desperate she is to make me say "ohh damn,get us two together"
My foot.
Mamoo's wedding has been one of the biggest issues lately,since he's interested in some 40 year old woman.I mean its alright but damnit forty?..and what about poor mani.
Her maternal relatives need some serious "Chhands" (note:not slaps).Really how sick can people be..telling a two year old her mom died.She's going to find it out when she grows up anyway.
A handful of bitches they are.
..And whats with all these women invading america?
..and why am I asking you that?

...
oh and I want people doing 'voluptuous' dances now too.
And let the dwellers of 'Mother Earth' know that Sanu likes belly dancing or even striptease for that matter.

You were to bring me a pyramid,mommy?

2005-09-05T00:11:00.000-07:00

My parents came back last night.Thank God!
Two more days and mamoo would have had to take me to a psychiatrist.I was really going mad,maybe I HAVE turned into a control freak or was just trying to keep things as they were when my mom was here,In any case my headaches..the shouting was just going out of control.
Ammi went last night too,I really am missing mani already.
So much for daily life,School has been a treat.Misha and I are on talking terms.Infact also sharing the bitchy talk about our funny classmates.Its all strange how in 2-3 days the relationship between us has changed so massively,the same with mallo.
This was a super sexy situation in the science lab..during physics.

Shahbano,my classmate: Sana ek baat poochoon?
hmm?
nahi rehnay do,'gandi' baat hai.
okay.

after five minutes,almost everyone sits around me,
Alja to shahbano:poocha?
Shahbano: nahi
Alja: to poocho na
erm..yaar sana,
hmm?
yeh 'love bite' kya hoti hai
*my eyes popping out,myself staring at her..everyone staring at me*
er..er..yar ..pata nahi
everyone: nahi yaar she knows..tell us.
shahbano: yaar mayri bahut baisti hoti hai.I'm seventeen and I dont know what a love-bite is..
me: yaar..pata nahi..'hickey' suna hai?
sameera: kya kya?maybe I know the answer
*after hearing the discussion*: oye sana batao na mujhe bhi
yaar I dont know
maha:bata do yaar..
mujhe nahi pata yar..I'm not here to offer sex education to you guys..shoo shoo!
yaar..sana bata dow na
*everyone listens with interest*
maha: OKAY I get it.
shabash,tum explain karo.
...after maha explains
alja the dumbass: to yar doesent it hurt.*looks at me*
dont look at me how would I know.
shahbano: chii,what a vampirish thing to do
shoo shoo! ab merey pas se hato

Back in class,in a conversation with sarah
..and you told them?
err..maha did.
*everyone in fits*

I have weird people in my class =\

Its time to shine!

2005-08-31T03:21:00.000-07:00

Its time to shine and throw my sash away.=D
My doodles,my dream has come true..I have sucky dreams so it doesent make a difference to people who dont know me well.Anyway so sanu is the "Dramatics and Debates representative" for the session of 2005-2006.My helper in this task shall be Maryam Imtiaz which is okay.
Misha has congratulated me,I did so too and she keeps turning around to talk to Zahra,to whom she has assigned the post of the seat next to me.(Everyone knows why)
Today,she actually came to sit with me,heh funny thing she is.
I enjoy it,maybe because I'm a funny thing myself.
Anyway the new sash will be issued around monday.
The magazine shall be out shortly =D.
A nice start to a hectic year?
eh'?
Parents are going to be back by sunday and I'm super missing them..but I'm glad they are happy.
Talked to mama yesterday..peacefully

..and I loved it.

PS: I think I saw shery the other day.He was looking hot baby.

Sheesha smoking nation?

2005-08-20T18:10:00.000-07:00

WOW.Cafe life is seriously one of the most disturbed places in the world.I do NOT doubt it.I have never been in a more pathetic place before.I really should have listened to Usman and not my sisters friends who wanted to 'try' it.Anyway I called baba and asked me to pick us up from there immediately and took them to pizza hut where you dont enter to find people lying on sofas,smoking sheesha,really what HAS happened to people these days?
And since it was my sister's guy's birthday,we celebrated via the 'pizza cutting ceremony' only to realise after some time that we really needed a cake.
I dont remember laughing like that in ages.Thanks to nabeel (nida's boyfriend) who is a teddy bear.
Apart from that my parents are going to Egypt alone and I just dont know how I'm going to manage these two monkeys.Ofcourse ammi WILL be coming over which means more melodrama due to the presence of our baby mani.
School opens on thursday.
Cant wait. =D

11.

2005-08-08T20:31:00.000-07:00

And So,The most awaited day of the year arrives,when everyone in the family goes bankrupt.
Duduu's Barfday.My apologies since this post is a day late,the reason being my absence at home.
Anyway,he's 11 now and says he's going to be a teenager 'REAL SOON' and I have promised him an electric guitar next year i.e If my financial conditions improve.For now,I got him a telescope with which,he's quite happy.

=)
I love my brother even though he kicks me all the time while sleeping.

Apart from that I went to Ammi's to spend the night and we had a blast,trying to make mani go to bed
Okay mahnoor it is sleeptime now.
No apa sana
Okay then what time is it?
Its piano time! *turns it on and starts dancing*

Eventually I had to turn of the light and pretend to be frightened of 'Dr.Butt' and 'bhaoo Kabir' <- the two evils in her life,*sigh*..and when nothing worked,I decided to take out very scary voices which she merely repeated as a joke.
Also I tried knocking the bed to which ammi pretended to be extremely scared and asked 'Ohhh whos doing this tak tak?'.Once again my formula failed and she replied, 'Apa sana is doing it.'
I dont know how she slept and when but when I woke up,I found the angel sleeping in my arms quietly.

And sometimes..there are no titles.

2005-08-01T01:46:00.000-07:00

We were handed the evacuation letter yesterday.After only eight months in this house,we are being asked to leave..and Its because some tom dick or harry is offering them 10-20 thousand more.But what about the gay hugs and kisses with baba?and what about the deal that WE were supposed to purchase this house in december,Its half ours anyway because he has half of the amount.
I hate this.I hate how one man makes a decision and everyone has to obey that.We had to do this eight months ago..and are being black mailed now.
Mama thinks I'm not bothered because I didnt talk to her about it.Its not her fault..
'Just because you cant see something,it doesent mean it isnt there'- Archer,The small soldiers.

There are things she doesent know..and there are things nobody knows.
People expect too much.from me and it scares me.
What If I do not live upto it.It makes me feel impotent.
ahh It rains,there is nothing better than rain to make you feel good.

So when is the war ending?
which war?
the one between you and misha..

The other day,
Misha: kya asshole insaan ho:@:@:@:@ batao naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Misha: oops sorry
Misha: wrong window
Sanu: thats alright,
Misha: yeh thanx:)

haha,I would like to think she still wants me =D

Happy Birthday ,Dad

2005-07-28T22:58:00.000-07:00

Baba,seriously,how old are you today
thirty five
*annoyed*
dont trust me?
It can't be.
check my ID card
1970?jhoot! I dont believe you
okay dont.

My Dad has NEVER revealed his age unlike mama who says "I dont look 39 at all"
and well,It is quite true because everyone assumes shes our 'older sister' (lol).Coming back to the topic we had a party last night..where my taya officialy claimed me the 'true blood of our family' on my exclaimation of the word 'bloody'. (I wonder what they are going to think when they see this page).

And since my sister is 24/7 admiring my unique ways of life, she has penned down Sanu's everyday routine and holds her as her divine inspiration now,
The table looks something like this ;

Wake up
Go online
Clean room
Go online
Breakfast
Online
Lunch
Online
T.V
Online

My hand hurts..and that ^ is exaggerated.

!@#$%%$!~

2005-07-26T12:27:00.000-07:00

arrrghh..
fuck hotmail just fuck account activation.SHIT goddamnit SHIT.
I just want to kill these hotmail bastards.SHIT.
Why do the things I want most just disappear?
FUCK YOU HOTMAIL.I WISH I COULD JUST COME AND KICK YOU ALL.
YES KICK YOU.
I hate everything.
everything damnit.

--just going through one of those power failures again
PS:For the first time Mr Orkut in my life has been a little useful.I just think I should bookmark this-
hah,fools!this does not in any way mean I'm back there =D

Oh I'm in love..lalala

2005-07-25T21:02:00.000-07:00

Okay so I'm back from another Vacation.(Had too many of them lately) BUT now I can proudly say that I am no longer single.
Yes my friends,Sanu is in love with not a woman this time.
Hes a 'dude that drives an F16', Wasay for some,Mikaal for others,Bush for some and Bin Laden for some.(No that doesent mean he has a split personality thing going on).
But its officially Mikaal.
Well,he's rather cute I must say..has long lashes..wears a highneck under his shirt,complains about a hole in his tongue which appeared due to the 'Patakhay' (Magic Pop) I gave him.He will beat you with his bat if you do not play cricket with him.He thinks I'm from China and miss it alot.(I even sang him a chinese song)
He will ask younger girls if they want to go with him and kiss them on their cheecks (what a flirt!) and those who say no will recieve special kicks and will have to open their mouth for some 'karkar'(Magic Pop)
He thinks M & M stands for Maira and Meekal (..and God knows who this Maira is).
The funny part is..that he actually has the balls to see old men and ask them "Wahh cheetay!..cheetay ko mar ke aye hain?"
Usually when girlfriends and boyfriends part,they give each other a kiss or something silly like that..mine came to my balcony and threw a pear up and shouted "Nashpati khani hai?"
So in short,I have a rather sexy kind of a boyfriend.Yes,I'm sorry ladies and chesterman,but this doesent mean I cannot flirt anymore =D.
Haha this was real fun

Dad on the phone: Waheeb?
Waheeb(cousin) : Yes Mamoo
Dad: Where are you?
Cousin: Nathiyagali
Dad: hain?Yesterday you told me you were back in Lahore..I even talked to your mom..anyway..where in Nathiyagali?
Cousin: I dont know there are trees..alot of mountains..I think near greens..
Dad: Khotay dey putra uth jaa
Cousin: Sorry mamoo ..I was just sleeping.

Hahahahahaha! *rolls over the floor laughing*

Samne ye kaun aya.

2005-07-12T18:37:00.000-07:00

'Samne ye kaun aya dil mai hui hulchul
daikhtay hi daikhtay sanam
hogaye hum pagal
tararam tararam tarara..hey hey....'
One of my favourite advertisments.
Sometimes I wish I could be an add designer,Its really sweet,watching a nice advertisment.Heh and definitely makes you want the product more.
I remember there was this time when only adds like 'lado dey lashkaray' were aired in Pakistan,or for that matter the 'washing powder nirma'( or was that India?)
'Doodh si safedi,nirma se ayi rangeen kapda bi khil khil jaye..' cute..I still remember that one..oh and the 'macchar hun main..' God bless mortien people they introduced louis to me.Hes one adorable machhar.Talking of Pakistani advertisments and good ones,I shall mention the new series of adds by everyday,(the husband-wife ones)I find those extremely adorable.
Sabz sitara and chaabi ka nishaan are funny.The 'gai soap' is still aired.oh well,
Warid's is pretty good,or the 'call suno balance barhao' ones.Haha,the adds by 'bonus' washing powder are funny.
I hate (pantene/head and shoulders/fair and lovely) 's marketing logo.A couple of people still need to realise keeping pop/rock stars in an add does not make it good.The ones I've talked off,I dont think they have mascotts.but then again,to each his own.
Theres is advertisment you'd catch rarely,of the Indica V2,where the guy keeps getting puched for anything he says,thats adorable or for that matter,the new pepsi(india) advertisment is good,where the kid promises the team pepsis for shots.
Sweet..we have brains working.

The end of a break

2005-07-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

Dubai-a desert greener than 'humara pyara Pakistan'.The 'sunday to sunday' just flew.
First of all,these desi airlines are SHITE.Daewoo is much better an option-too bad it doesent go to Karachi.Just imagine waking up at five on a sunday and rushing to the airport to catch your flight at eight.After sitting two whole hours there,they tell you the flight has been delayed to 12:30,which means it will not depart at 12:30 also,which means theres no way you'll catch that emirates to dubai on 2:30.Anyway,you fetch a taxi and go back home in the 'mad' rain which makes the entire lahore look like venice.
No sooner that you turn on 'swades' you are informed that you'll be taking the nine 'o'clock flight of airblue to Karachi.So you rush through the pools of water to the Illama Iqbal International only to find out that this flight will now take off at ONE IN THE NIGHT.
Anyway you wait the three hours there and when finally you're seated in the 'thakka hua airblue ka rickshaw' you realise whos behind you,the stupid 'bombay suckers' troupe along with Fakr-e-idiot and boy,how lovely it was with their beaks constantly open in the conjusted plane.
Anyway we took the next day's emirates to Dubai.once landed we were greeted by 'Iftikar saab'-an old acquaintance of my Dad's and his neice who SPOKE ALOT-not to forget the big van from the hotel he had booked for us in AJMAN.
Hotel-rejected and we went to his place for lunch after which the hunt for Avari-Deira began.
His stupid BMW.rotten.withOUT an AC.
The rest of the days were well,tiring.My mom and sister 'could'nt shop enough'.I tell you these shopping malls they have-brilliance.The city centre is too crowded,at all times.Burjuman is beautiful,Mercatto, a thumbsup.One of the most beautiful malls is the Bin Batuta.(I have pics).
The desert safari is 'paisa wusool' and the belly dance got my lesbian extincts activated.
One thing I will never forget-going to the beach in white and falling in the water.left me embarrased-not to forget transparent.The jet ski-ing is fun too and if somebodys looking for desi food in Doobai,the shamiana,karachi darbar and delhi darbar is a must go to.(The fast food isnt good for me)Theres this 'Hediard'(say: heediar) in Burjuman.Damnit their caramel frappe is AMAZING.
In all,It was a good trip.Thanks to Dad.Hes the most 'giving'(not generous) person there ever could be.
Lots of shopping-for everybody in the family made me go bonkers.Being the humble self I am,I only bought a pair of sneakers because the ones I had were torn,a pair of jeans and some other clothes.And a watch my dad surprised me with.
In short-I had enough of a break,I can almost imagine Sir Tawseef with a gun at me now.

Advice to domestic flyers: Do NOT fly airblue,these bastards dont even have their Air conditioners working.:@

Heh,

2005-06-30T05:16:00.000-07:00

Tellme something.Have you ever really heard nirvana?(lol)
Once/twice.I would prefer you call me a 'paindu' than listen to nirvana.
so you listen to E.P eh?
I dont like them too,I would prefer Mohd.Rafi/ Ghulam Ali anytime.
when did I call you a paindu?
When did I say you did?

Seriously. =\

"The only way to keep you sane is to keep you busy," - Shery.
he was right there.=\

Summer camp.2005.

2005-06-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

The Library(sanctuary)

Happy?yes the weather was good

'Babes'

summer.'Good ol' summer'

..and I will continue to censor my pics.(why the hell do I always end up with misha?

beat this.

...And finally it ends,
no
I have found my escape.

2005-06-23T17:45:00.000-07:00

Waking up at five while the sun dances its ass off outside is not one of the best ideas I've come across so far.Ofcourse everyone does not know what its like,Initially,the idea of "two classes a day" "no roll" "a 24/7 canteen" and "an open pool?!?" etc might sound fun.
But once the ball starts to roll,you realise everything Isnt what you expected of it.
(I would know since I have been attending summer school from the past three years-AND IT ISNT FUN!)
The A.C of your sanctuary,the lab,is so beautiful you'd probabbly trade it for a lollipop.
Eventually,you HAVE to move to the liabrary where,after two days you start hearing sounds of "air craft landing".
Yes my friends,this A.C shall rest in peace too,but you know I feel sorry for the ninth/tenth graders.poor things they dont even get that.
Anyway,the cooler now contains boiling water and the canteen wala lujjer starts selling the nestle pet for fifteen rupees!
Any cold drink purchased after 10:00 will be more like tea and the chips(packaged) will make you vomit the entire day.
The sight of beautifull young women with smudged "kajal" and melting "bases" in their "kaam wala joras" are something you no longer appreciate.( Although I agree I dont tie my hair(well almost all the time) but thats just because It hurts when I tie them)
What is more apalling is that you start hearing incidents of 9.o evacuating a lizard from the pool,Marium and Ramsha (classmates) being spotted in their swimming costumes by the "mazdoors".
To add to the pudding,your time table undergoes a massive change,7 more Pakistan studies Blocks.
!?!?!?!?!??
and If that wasnt enough,they extend the school (only for us) so that we ONLY study pakistan studies that entire week.
The story does not end here my friends,at 3,you again have to march to Sir Tawseef Baig's boiling basement,but thats the better part of the day because of the free spells of humor everyone undergoes there.
Oh,and that reminds me,I have a test today.
Anyway I'm just exhausted,like those pippette fillers when you draw air out of them?
and I'm tired =(.
Need a break and some major mood lifting.
NO MORE LAHORE!

blek.

2005-06-22T00:48:00.000-07:00

Hit "Publish Post"

just for the sake of it.
heh,this blog is getting super gay. =D

To the memory.

2005-06-17T21:16:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,you just do things you know you will not be credited for.

there is something about this,I like.

Expectations are,the mag does have my name in the credits part.

Ns and Cs

2005-06-11T20:22:00.000-07:00

Names.
You know what chester,names can cause confusions.Huge confusions.
For instance,It is seen that a LOT of boys named 'Abdullah' suffer from high time confusion
Reports speak of a situation where a grade three student is so keen on avoiding grammatical erros and the fact that you put an 'a' before a noun that he writes his name in the format

I am a bdullah.

No kidding.
His parents,teachers all are VERY worried of this as per repeated emphasis on his name,he does not cease to write "I am a bdullah".

Another case,with another Abdullah.
He is a student in prep class and has learned the 'abcd' so well that when it comes to writing his name,he writes 'Abcd'.
After a clear study of the case,experts(dumb asses) have found out that the child probabbly wonders as to why there is a 'd' right after a 'b' when it should be a 'c' and to correct the error his parents have created,he writes 'ABCD' whenever it comes to writing his name.

The confusion does not end here.
A particular part of the youth today is so confused as to HOW to spell their names that they alter their spellings to 'cooler' ones.
I have no objections to this as a few of the alterations are actually quite clever.
Some,are just pointless.

Waqas changes to Vyqas
Misha changes to Mysha
Mariam changes to Marium
Ali is likely to become Aleee ( I'm sorry because I've pulled your leg enough)
Zs change to Xs
The list is endless
..and many names ending in a simple 'a' have an extra 'h' attached.

Why? the mystery remains unsolved.
Please note that a few of the people I have named are my batch mates/acquaintances and by no means have I tried to offend anyone.If that happens,I am sorry and beg to be forgived
Thats just me =\

The 'T' and the 'I'

2005-06-08T06:03:00.000-07:00

Event: Senior Trip '05
Date: around the 3rd of July
Destination: Turkey
Requirements: 75000 rupees(food at your expense) + passport
Status: Permission not asked.
Reason: Answer known.

User wishes to go
Parents not particularly happy with user.
Dad does not own a bank.
User: =S

Apart from that,my computer broke down (fuck it.I knew it would)
All documents L O S T .
Seperators to be made A G A I N.

*Sigh*

=\

2005-06-05T03:15:00.000-07:00

Blank.
Thats what I am these days.

oh and by the way,I finally took out time to see the exorcist
heh,the devil is so frustrated *laughs*
*laughs even harder*

2005-06-03T10:33:00.000-07:00

Some people get to shine,Others just whine

how cocky is that?
Yes,I see a loser too.

An undefined presence.

2005-06-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

Or maybe just an Illusion of the mind.I dont know.
Today as I sat in my usual retreat on our terrace,crying..just for satisfaction,with my face on the table covering my head,I suddenly started feeling watched.
This had never happened before.As far as I can remember.
I looked up to see if there was somebody in my own terrace or somebody from the neighbourhood,just stunned to see a maniac but as far as my eyes could track,not a single soul was in sight.
Strange.
I turned away..a little calmed by the distraction and met my own little world again.
No later had I done this that again,I started to feel somebody around me. Yet again,I turned around to scan.(My mom usually watches me quietly when I'm by myself)
Nobody.
I was beginning to think it was my imagination..calming myself down when all of a sudden this plant beside me started to shake.
I thought it just might be the wind but that particular plant made NOISE.
Yes,as strange as it may sound,It shook hard.
Scared,I left.

It sounds crazy,and I think it was just my imagination.Well,hopefully.
Very scary.
Very.

--
Apart from that,I had to tell you this Mr blogster,
I find Mr Randeep Hooda very disturbing (because of certain reasons.And yes,I searched his name) yet,I cant help but find him extremely hott.
Mind you,I havent said this about a man in ages.

The winds have changed,my friend.

2005-05-29T01:52:00.001-07:00

hi
hi
how are you?
fine
I wanted to talk
m?
have you forgiven me?
you're not at fault from my side
...

that lasted for about half an hour.
Him constantly telling me he couldnt live with the fact I had changed and me,telling him he shouldnt bother about me.well he says he lives in the same world and knows whatsup with me.
I'm glad worldcall lost its virginity that moment..and Im glad we couldnt talk properly.
I check my mail at two and guess what?yes.I have a message from him.
I dont know whats up and why after so many months hes talking to me.Frankly speaking,I dont want to talk to him..because It disturbs me. and I dont know why I just dont throw him out of my list.
I know he isnt bothered.Im one hundred percent fucking sure.
He does this to me.
always.

PS: I'm developing this new habbit of cutting random peices of paper randomly with a random nailcutter.
random psychic?
.hmm

Baloons

2005-05-24T00:25:00.000-07:00

my,I just came back from a roller coaster ride.
What may I say lol.damnit I'm so happy.I am SO happy.

Reason:

I was working in the lab.Nida comes to me and asks me to step out.
Yeah?
Come with me
What is it Im working right now yar?
Misha wants to talk to you
WHAT????
*Sanu loses conciousness and her heart starts jumping in her stomach*
She said she wanted to talk before we leave,go ask her what it is
What does she have to talk about?
I dont know she went "Im looking for sana,strange no?"
..
5 minutes later I find her with a couple of other kids and Sir Shameel in the lab
Misha, you wanted to talk?
Yeah.
*Mallo and Misha come out*
Mallo: We have a milad at my place next thursday,for Sarah's mom,will you come?
*puzzled*
Yeah,sure give me the adress sometime tommorow.

...=\
This is me right now.
http://blogs.salon.com/0001883/images/Grinch.jpg

Scary white envelope.=(

2005-05-19T12:05:00.000-07:00

4 more to go.
I have this sour feeling my result is going to make me cry.and its very strong.
I cant believe I've been silly enough to cry on that "feeling" of mine.
Its strange because,I dont know.I dont want to come out of school yet again with another white envelope in my hand and cry like shit in the car?like the mid-terms.
If this happens..I admit I'm a failure.

I talked to usman today,after so long.
Felt so damn good.just twenty minutes of that guy and I feel so good.
Just because he says nothing.lol.

=\sunita is such a monkey damnit.

2005-05-13T20:07:00.000-07:00

The entire "group" was there at the Qul,all six of us (including me) like we were a year ago.
Saw Sherbano after almost 6 months
"Sana tum kitni bari bore hogayi ho" That was her reaction after seeing me.
Really,after Nijhu,I dont remember being impressed by a "girl" but really,I was stunned at Sarah.
I didnt see that woman cry. Milli Aapa,Sana,Mallo,Shery(sherbano),me..Everyone collapsed at the news.
I would've probabbly died if it were to happen to me.
Im ..spellbound.

..
After the Dua'a
We're all upstairs..everyones talking.Sarah comes sits with me and calls everyone.
..And they start talking.
Sanu's quiet.
Sarah: you mind talking?
Sherbano: forheavensake speak.Its not like we're your in-laws.
*smiles*

Misha and I,lol.We're always wearing similar stuff by coincidence,I cant believe she actually helped me when It came to food.

Happy Birthday Misha.

.

2005-05-11T02:15:00.000-07:00

Came back from Sarah's.
Her mom died.

.....I feel sick..and depressed?

How to take a bath

2005-05-08T07:23:00.000-07:00

All you need is a purple glass

and two little hands

dip them in water;one after the other

but I can cheat

"See appa sana,I am washing my feet"

You can also taste some

Take it fan!!

Oh,All this time I was being photographed?

DNT;this is my daily dose of "tubbies"

I love her to death.More love to you mani! =) Appa Sana loves you bacha!

Please dont forget

2005-05-05T10:06:00.000-07:00

I think I should keep reminding myself of this from time to time

I dont mean anything. =/

I hate everyone =(

The best thing about life

2005-05-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

Did anyone ever wonder as to what the best thing about life is?

You get to eat silly!!

Damnit If its for food I'd live a million years.I dont get how people can 'diet'.Eat cottage cheese (yuck) no sugar(eww) and have brownbread (pukes)
Really I mean I just dont get it.Food is such a blessing *and Im such a food lover.*
Be it cooking,eating or just staring at it,it makes one feel so good.(okay someone like me)

Why do you have sprite zero?
I'm on a diet.
*Haha,tellme you want to dissapear.*

Ive been told I eat alot.ALOT.Though my mom thinks I dont eat at all.
Anyway what I think is,I usually tend to just stuff my self when my exams are near*sniff I see that tummy bulging out*
But I just cant diet.Really,its not my thing.I dont think anyone should diet comeon.I'm ready to walk 10 kilometers a day but dieting..NOWAY.
*sigh* that reminds me I really need to work out (I hate that big tummy.)

PS: Please pray for Sarah's mom,shes in coma,I really cant see people around me cry.(eventhough shes just an acquaintance)

The walls of a classroom

2005-04-29T06:51:00.000-07:00

The world is a funny place,a classroom is funnier.
Its really funny how different people of different mentalities and almost the same age(lets not go there,Im the baby) see each other everyday and come up with the weirdest of stuff ever.
This post is a tribute to my lovely classmates.
No matter how dumb their contributions are,they sure are fun.

Please note that this is the teacher

This is the student

and this is sanu

An Islamiat lesson on modesty is in session.

..and did you know about that suhabee who was staring at this woman?

No,please enlighten

well,there was this suhabee who was staring at this woman and the Prophet (SAW) turned to him,held his beard and cut it off(mind you did not shave)

*class in fits*

Maryam,you really should not believe everything you hear.

Maths session

So misha,you tellme,which numbers can "X" never be?

*teacher annoyed*

okay 10?

how are you calculating?

Im assuming.

Pak studies:

He shall be credited for bridging the gap between..

Excuse me Mrs Ahsan,

Yes amna?

Where is this bridge?

An essay is being read "and Peter got.."

wait a minute why does it always have to be peter?why not a paki guy?

Yes like rehan,aftab,ali,abid,furqan,raheel,sarfaraz

Maryam Imtiaz who are all these men please?

*Sanus free and bored,she goes to the eng lit. teacher(she has just one student and sanu loves the teacher dearly)*

Mrs muntazir,can I attend this class?

Sure letme give you a background first.

*explains...* and then there was this storm

her student:miss,there was no storm

amna,there was a storm. *eventually the confusion is cleared,the story continues*

and the name of the ship is?

st:its not given

It is amna

st: no its not

it is.

me:*I think I have a class*

Biology. topic under discussion: Contraception

one of te naive kids:sir,I dont understand condoms do you have one in the lab?

Baitay,you are not in the U.S

Oh I study alot during papers

Its good,one should

But mrs. muntazir,Whenever I study alot I fail. =S

*laughs* I knew youd come up with something like that sana.

Enough for now,Im sick and need bed.

*aaaachoo*

Fucking Maths class :@

2005-04-25T02:03:00.001-07:00

Sir,I dont get this
Idiot:Look here Misha...blah blah blah
*Sanus trying hard to get that bitch in her head*
Maryam from the other end to me: Is this yours?
Yeah
Maryam:You lost it right?
Yeah just now..just pass it on..
Idiot:Keep Quiet!! *shouts at me*
Misha:*Starts to laugh loud*
"Sir she was just giving me my register," I say,softly
Idiot: *shouting at me* I said just keep quiet!
But she was asking me..
Idiot:JUST KEEP QUIET!! *the freak shouts*
But I was just asking her to just pass it here how am I supposed to do my work?
Idiot: Just keep quiet *Still shouting*

I almost cried there,I could feel the warm tears swelling up inside my eyes.(This always happens when Im arguing)
I have never ever been in my memory shouted at by any of my teachers and that too when it was'nt my fault.I mean what else wouldve I done,I was asking her to shut up.I dont mean Ive never been scolded,yes I have but never has any teacher of mine took it to an extent I was about to burst into tears,Im probabbly being very touchy but I cant help it.
Im sorry,

*I throw my books In the window pane next to me,get my novel and start reading it*
After a few minutes he comes to get all cheesy with misha and the other girls
To me, Ye baitay you what are you doing?
Sorry?
I said what are you reading?
A book
And the question I gave these girls?
Ill do it at home
Youre supposed to do it here
Sorry sir,but Im not interested
what?
I said Im not interested in doing this here
then you shouldnt attend my class
very well,I wont
yes go and give them the application in the office
Right sir,

So heres the thing.You bitch with me I bitch with you too.Im not sparing him.I am not sparing that Idiot little dimwit who just pays his fucking attention to the ones in such tight uniforms their underclothing shows or to those who get all chummy and gay with him or to those who sit at the back and laugh at his funny english.
Now Im none,because I sit alone in a corner and listen to whatever fucking thing he says he thinks im dumb

This was a week ago

You,Why do you sit there in that corner?
Sir but You can check my work.I dont miss out on anything
What did you get in the montly test
an A.
How much?
39.
out of?
45
*walks away*

For all I know right now,hes going to get loads of attitude from my side now on,and I dont mean Im going to shout at him like the others do,but sorry Im going to talk to him just like I did today,Im getting the application signed and handing it in the office tommorow if he asks for it.
Im not the girl I used to be a year ago.Im not going to take anyones bullshit.Anyones.Because Ive had it for like what 4 years now?FUCK YOU.
Be bitch.Get bitch.

2005-04-23T20:25:00.000-07:00

I need to talk
Talk
No,later..when you're free
Sure.

That was sarah to me..three days ago.I wonder what she had to talk about,really I hate that look she had in her eyes.The Last time she gave me that look was when she talked to me about him.

Later that day in msn.
Sarah,I have to ask you something
What?
What did you want to talk about
Lol,later
No now.Ill die of anxiety
No, Ill talk face to face
Are you going to propose?
You Wish :P

Sigh,Ill have to wait till tommorow and I have loadss of work to do now..for the mag.
Sigh.

The world around Sanu

2005-04-19T18:17:00.000-07:00

Ive Been wondering,Alot of people around me resemble certain cartoon characters.hmmm..

Misha,Mallo,Sarah :The three goofs.Damnit they are so ed edd and eddy!!

Rohma,Nida,Xenia :My sister and her pals,
rohma is so bubbles..too loud,
nado=blossom,always messing with her hair
and xenia *sigh* 24/7 angry

Now that..Is so Alisha!sexy.

Rizvi*aww*

haha no prizes for guessing thats Asfandyar *the nerd..*

And that is just SO PIA! so PIA!

Usmanji

Jontiji: damnit I see the resemblance!

Huma *Just too loveable*

Shan *he thinks women love him.*

Abdulji :And that is definitely Abdul damnit! =\

Nijhu *sigh* most def

Marium: (my sister's friend) haha she even speaks like bellum

Sunita : too happy.

Weenu *hugg* The best wife sanu could ever have!

And I love them all so much!

.

2005-04-15T18:15:00.000-07:00

Are you coming today?
umm Yeah.
Sarah turns around in excitement,"what you're finally coming out of your shell?"

So Yeah,I did come out of my shell this afternoon,went to gymkhana with my classmates.Well,I didnt really have fun,I could'nt have had fun.Thats not fun to me anyway.So yeah a very short lunch and they had to run away,as usual on their shopping/ice creaming trip leaving me in gymkhana to wait for mama,well It wasnt bad,It wasnt so good either.
Apart from that haha fucking unbelievable,I scored an A in urdu!
lol this is too funny,my first ever A in urdu.lol
Im still not talking to Nida,my sister- after that wrestle match we had.Really,I tried talking shes too arrogant so be it.
Oh by the way,I met a long lost batchmate at the dinner(edit: dinner?Im losing itLUNCH!).Not much has changed,we couldnt talk peacefully then,we cant talk normal now also.

Things with misha have been weird.no really WEIRD.=\

She starts to laugh when I laugh,
If I have anything to say,she has something to ALWAYS add in favour of it.
If accidentally someone comes to sit with me (I sit alone,behind her) Shes going to turn around and start talking to her and stare at what I am doing.
And she still wont talk.

Its really ...funny..

2005-04-13T07:50:00.000-07:00

okay guys I want snaps for the magazine,you want yours there?Its supposed to look like you guys didnt know you were being photographed
Yeah yeah wait a sec.
..and I sit there..waiting,watching my sister and her friends open their hair get their notes and "act" pretty.(lol.)
Okay we're ready
You look fake I mean,Im only telling you guys because you said you wanted a snap in there now ACT NATURAL.
we look natural,just go on.
SNAP.

hha,you guys look made up anyway,lol

*********************************************************

I go to rabia,the editor.
There,thats todays work.
She looks at the pics..
*laughing* haha these are damn good,people dont even know
and comes this pic..
haa,they dressed up no?
*Laughing*

http://atlas.walagata.com/w/sanu/posers.JPG

This is cute.haha.
CUTE.Really cute.
ps:they dont even open their notes for months.lol

Ohh sanu's smart!!

2005-04-11T02:53:00.000-07:00

WOW.just WOW.
The entire weekend I dont open my stupid mathematics book and I get an A on monday??!!!
This is too good.*I feel smart*
aahh *grin* and no I will NOT brush my teeth.
God this is soo goood.
Anyway I saw BLACK yesterday and my,I love it.I really really do.*sigh* I want K.E =\
I have to go now.Another shopping trip *ugh* just *ugh*
God I HATE shopping!

2005-04-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

"You know what?with that handwriting you're going to blind the examiner"

I've been getting LOADS of complaints about my writing now.Its really annoying because..err I cant help it
"I'm not saying its ugly,you write well.Its just too small sana.TOO SMALL"
Okay now as hard as I may try and as foolish as it may sound I just cant help it because it doesent seem tiny to me.It looks but normal.
I remember an aged teacher of mine in grade five telling me.Those who write huge in their early ages usually have tiny words once they "grow up".
She used to very much be a phychic too.Once really angry at the way I write she yelled
" This shows how much you keep things to yourself!! "
Its really on the high now because everyones talking about it.
They say my paper could be discarded on that account too.
Sigh.

This is what bad sleep can do.

2005-04-07T02:12:00.000-07:00

Hahaha,I just realised what I made yesterday were NOT golgappas but Gulab jamuns.
*slaps herself*
sanu,you're losing it definitely.
=\

The Golgappay and Rasgulla.

2005-04-06T14:58:00.000-07:00

I tried my hand at the golgappas and the rasgullas yesterday and..
I suck.
My Golgappas were retarted,shapes of RBCs,nonetheless they tasted good and my rasgullay..well salty.
*sigh*
I wonder what went wrong.=(
ps: That idiot of a sister of mine has the ac on.Allah,dont let me freeze.=/

hmm.

2005-04-03T15:55:00.000-07:00

Bored I am and trust me,Its normal now.
Since I quit bt two days ago I really dont have much to do.
I was just going through various blogs the other day and This one in particular caught my attention
http://bubblemunche.blogspot.com/
I dont know the guy hes singaporean I believe but the blog is really cute.and very very very very entertaining and this is where I usually end up when I am super bored.

Anyway the dinner last night was good,mani was just going crazy running around,she gets adorable everyday! but you know what the highlight of the night was?
They made me have roasted beef.5 bites and I was about to puke.ThankGod I'm safe now.
PS: Try having vanilla ice-cream with coke,It seems appalling but tastes...weird.

2005-04-01T16:38:00.000-08:00

Its so disturbing.
It has always been bad for my eyes and I just hate it so much.
How can people be so cruel?I mean to others who dont even know what the fuck they did.
I hate those bastards who make those little children stand out on the burning roads bare footed I mean COME ON. They're little children forheavensake.Is it only we who see that?and we so helpless we see that little 6 year old working for our neighbours day and night and we just watch him run around like a bitch.
On the other hand there are these bastards who hit animals.In particular the donkeys.I just hate it.
My mom: " Oh God what is wrong with this donkey "
Me: " Mama,it is just a donkey,how is it supposed to know!"
If you observe carefully you can see those red skin deep marks on these animals.Trust me they look so bad you dont even want to see them.They hit them bad and they run like anything with loads of furniture on top? haha. These men are just bastards.
bastards.
and this is a mood wave.

2005-03-31T16:09:00.000-08:00

Sanu, your Super IQ score is 105

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test.
We also determined the way you process information.The way you think about things makes you an Original Thinker. This means you're a naturally abstract thinker. You pick up visual detail that others routinely miss. You're also very good at making connections that don't already exist, and you have your own ideas of how the world works. While your talents matter greatly in real life, they are sometimes overlooked in less thorough intelligence tests.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of an Original Thinker? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you an Original Thinker. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

*sigh* does that make me dumb?=(

and for those interested (as if) heres the link.
http://web.tickle.com/tests/superiq/authorize/register.jsp?url=/tests/superiq/index.jsp

PS: Your head will hurt once you're done.Mine is =(

Show me that big belly!

2005-03-29T16:55:00.000-08:00

Aww,I went shopping yesterday.Oh well I wanted to lie down on the floor and cry at the Levi's store,I just couldnt.
I didnt get something for myself but this particular top caught my eye.Damnit It was so cute.Skin hugging Black with sequins and spaghetti straps. "Awwww" ...But not for myself.It was for 1-2 year olds so guess what..I brought it for mani.
Damn she came last night and I tried it on her.Haha I loved her big tummy popping out of the top.(Mashahallah)
Adorable.
Haha,Only to get her a mini now. ;)

This is how the ant drowned.

2005-03-29T01:21:00.000-08:00

Okay so what are you going to write?Why did the ant go to the bank?
Umm,to get food?
what kind of food?
Fish?
Do ants fish?*angry*
Umm okay so Ill just write its foot went in the water and it fell?
Do ants have feet? *laughing,angry*
Sorry,Mama

Haha,this is so adorable,my younger brother and my mom this morning planning an essay for his test.

For fucks sake please?

2005-03-28T01:37:00.001-08:00

*gets down on her knees and starts begging*

I am not trying to act "popular" or "cool" here but I dont care If it sounds that way because really, Its better I shout with you than with other bitches and It really really real fuckin really annoys me when they do it because I know they do it.*Grr* I feel my blood simmer.
Why why why why why the fuck do the fuck do these "friends" of mine copy me?
I mean its so annoying,stealing what I have written..talking like me,I just wish I could go hammer their heads but ahahahahahahaha ha! I cant even say anything theyr my fucking "friends"
please bitches please.dont copy me.It is ANNOYING.

Congratss!! * slap *

2005-03-24T20:11:00.000-08:00

You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

Unipolar Depression

67%

Borderline Personality Disorder

67%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

50%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

33%

Eating Disorders

33%

Schizophrenia

Which mental disorder do you have?
created with QuizFarm.com

WTF?

2005-03-24T18:58:00.000-08:00

What the heck is happening? *smiles*
Is this going to be one GREAT summer? (I'm guessing)
Mehnaz,Samia,Sukhi,Sallu,Ali,Cat- Theyr all alive after three whole years?? Damn!
Nonetheless my war with shan continues.
haha,

----

This is embarassing
http://www.boomspeed.com/dollzheaven2/quiz1.html

You are Toilet Paper.You are used and taken advantage of by a lot of people, including your friends. They make you be the one to clean up their messes in their life. But the only reason that this happens is because of your kindness and commitment. These are the qualities most members of the opposite sex look for, which makes you hot. Yes, toilet paper is hot. But be careful that your lover doesn't use you to their advantage, and be sure that they are not seeking too much control. Remember: Toilet paper is used by many, but is most often considered valuable when it is not there in time of need.

ps:bloggy are you sick?

Gruff

2005-03-23T17:24:00.000-08:00

" whosoever thinks shan is mature needs to see a real man "

I dont know why hes started to piss me off.I dont know,I dont like the way he tries to "act" arrogant or mature,because hes none.
I never thought Id say this about anyone because I dont really feel this for ANYONE but.I think I'm beginning to hate him.
I dont know,maybe its just a dislike,very strong anyway.

The Picture

2005-03-22T20:14:00.000-08:00

Remember I told you how maha captured her standing next to me at the farewell?
lol well,heres the pic *lmao* Just look at the expression on her face.*cute*

PS: Im laughing my head off there.

http://atlas.walagata.com/w/sanu/feeww.JPG

Reunion?

2005-03-22T06:12:00.000-08:00

Talked to two of my long lost friends yesterday,
Sallu and mehnaz.Felt so good *was it reunion?* lol

Sallu: youre alive?? =o
What you wanted me dead or something?haa hes so cute

Had a great day,(yes call me a painduu) Ive got hold of the "KAAL" casette and I just LOVE IT.the entire thing is AWESOME!=) *tshhhk,something happy*

Back to square one People just cant stop telling me how happy my "significant other" is.
haha,yes yes "oh no not again," but yes nado says hes with some hina.
fuck it now I dont give a damn.
but then why the fuck do I still cry?

That bitch waqas,he apologised.Damn Im so happy hes in pain (I hope he isnt faking that too)

Mehnaz didi: what did you do to shan?
haha,we euthanised him

he gets crazier everyday.

And now fuck it I dont want to be sad.
Shit!=(

My long lost twin

2005-03-21T12:38:00.000-08:00

I was just talking to Taz,
Love talking to her because she talks about everything other than my "lovelife".lol
We were talking of lookalikes,reminded me of my twin sister in LGS Kabana (another branch of the school I read in)
Haha,this is really weird.
I have people coming to me,asking if I have a twin there or if I have spent some time in that school.
Obviously I dont know what theyre talking about so they tellme theres this girl there who looks just like me.
Funny 'eh?
I'd love to meet my "long lost twin" (as Taz says)

.

2005-03-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

Hahahahhaahaha
Wahahahahahahahhaha
Sanu's going to die of laughter
God this is just so fucking funny.
Whenever she feels shes got her mind off things,they just come back to her.lmao
*rotfl*

You wait and watch blog,shes going insane.

Why?

2005-03-19T19:49:00.000-08:00

Grr,I have a one week break *yaaay*
so I can partayyyy.i.e If im busy but with whats happening I see a boooooooooring week ahead *grr*
Forums=dead
Msn=dead (haha I hate it anyway)
Tv= dead
whatelse..?
telephone= been dead for a year almost.

Ive been noticing,the blogs are dead too,Rizvi,Asfandyar,Abdulji =S
grrr.
I dont want to die of boredom =(

%$#@!!#$%^#@!

2005-03-18T03:51:00.000-08:00

Why are you out?
Because those darned things have the fans on.Its so chilly.
(laughs) Im here to enjoy the weather.
Yeah its great.

Silence.

So..whats up with your life?
Life..nothing.
Ahan,I have to tell you something
What?
Im finally over umer.
This is so good (smiles)Im so happy for you
Yeah,everyone else is,except for me.
Its better to be over and done with (voice fades away)
Do you orkut?
No,I told you before.
Yeahh..
Sana,I wanted to ask you something
(smiles) go ahead=)
You seem depressed.
(laughs) why?Im the one who keeps this class alive.
No,I mean I see you on msn,your nicks.
Nicks are just nicks.
Is everything over with him?
(tries to maintain a straight face,1.2.3..tears.)
Dont cry,its not worth it.No guy is worth it sana,trust me It was visible.
I was shocked (crying)
Can I hug you?
*hugg*
was that for another girl?
yeah
Dont you hate him for what he did I mean all of the misunderstandings between us?
(Quiet)
Is that why you dont use orkut?The scraps?
(nodds,crying.Now the juniors are watching)
Straighten up,Miss Alyias here
(hides her face)

What are you ?a three year old?
No,I'm not feeling well
Go call home,
No Ill be fine
(looks at sarah)Is she low?
Yes sort of
(smiles)Sometimes,crying helps
(smiles)

This is between us.
I know misha knows.
No trust me,
Sarah,I know I dont care
I know you dont care lekin..
Its okay.

FUCK THIS?

2005-03-17T10:28:00.000-08:00

I am just simply toooo tired right now,cant even see properly.Dont know why I dont want to go to bed when my body is literally crying for sleep.
Anyway it was nidas barfday so yes naturally I was busy.
Ive been feeling shitty from the past two days,probabbly because of yeah you know what sanu.
So yeah well I just came across something really funny.you remember the farewell?
well lol.Maha Khan actually managed to capture me and misha standing next to each other.Godddamit the pic is super duper funny.Im going to post it here .I took it from her and the best thing is misha knows I have it so yeah she didnt bitch today.
lolShe probabbly thinks I miss her which Is not an illusion again
.I know theres a part of me that still does.I dont know anything.

I feel mature and six months old at the same time.
"I whine".
that just annoys me now.It was funny earlier.Now it is irritating because I talk to my page and I want to do it because I have nobody else to talk to.And I mean it
There are so many people who just see me making them laugh 24/7
So Im only crying with my blog,Is it wrong if it makes me feel a little better?knowing its listening?

Half of the people around me tell me Im extremely "fun" and seem "older than I am"and the others well,yes that I am a cry baby.Well that wont be false too,because I really have turned into one
.You snatch my barbie and today I can bet I will cry.Its just the blog I cry with.Is there anything wrong with it sanu?
I just am so sick of people telling me what to do.I just want it my way now.I cant have that though.

lolagain,am I talking sense?=S

ps: Its so cold yet again here in Lahore *grr*and Im so warm.Sick probabbly.haha again.

Shoot her!!

2005-03-16T16:52:00.000-08:00

an ammateur film
-One of te "kewlest" kids on the ep block.
Just how dare she say that..*slaps her a million times*
Yes you deserve it.Sholay is not an amateur film *slap slap slap*
It is a brilliant thing! and kids who think calling it amateur are cool are actually a bunch of little assed caricatured bunnies and deserve nothing but lashes.
*slap slap slap*
Kitne aadmi they
I remember my crush on gabbar *batts eyelashes*

=S

2005-03-16T01:35:00.000-08:00

*throws everything at everyone*
*hits her blog bad,hugs it and cries like anything*

..I feel so angry and so unhappy at the same time.
Is that possible?=S

His happiness kills me.

So Impossible

2005-03-14T16:26:00.000-08:00

I cried last night,It doesent really matter because a tear or two daily is a norm,but I cried really bad last night while praying.It is hard.
Nida and Vicky are done which should be a great thing because he always took her for granted.She's with Nabeel now.I'm not saying he doesent deserve this.I'm just..I dont know
I guess I will always have the soft corner for Vicky.Probabbly because he's his brother or because I've always seen him as mine too.
I dont know,Every now and then she makes me read his mails his pleas now and I cry.I mean wtf this isn't happening.She tells me he's been crying.Again he might be faking it but I dont know.
Ahh.You're so impossible sanu.You are so not possible.
Im glad my sisters not weeping over it.Shes happy.
Again shes got so many people with her.Shes not alone=)
I didnt have anybody probabbly this is why I tell them it isn't easy or probabbly Ive lost it completely

Haha.

2005-03-12T21:25:00.000-08:00

I wouldnt have done this If sunita had'nt urged me to

http://www02.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050313002153-309506&email=&c=&a=01
hmm,so lets see how well they know me.

..

2005-03-11T20:25:00.000-08:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever.. oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you
If you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
he world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Ahh,one of my favourites.I love this song so much.
I dont know what made me recall it.
It is so beautiful.=)

Haha,Scene of the millenium

2005-03-11T06:12:00.000-08:00

Buwahahahaha.I havent laughed this crazy in centuries.LMAO(rotfl)

- Im standing with a couple of classmates and rohma (my sisters bff) who are trying to tellme about this abusive kid of the accountants

-Misha tafheem comes really excited and asks everyone to shutup and starts her story in sheer enthusiasm but when she starts,she doesent know shes standing right next to me

- So she turns towards me and starts speaking and all of a sudden she realises its me.So the smile goes away and she quickly turns the other side

Lmao...wahahahahaa million bucks for a replay.

2005-03-09T18:00:00.000-08:00

I was hoping yesterday would turn out to be a good day.
No it didnt.
I almost cried the entire day.I dont know,theres this something/someone who cant see me happy.
Whenever I feel a little normal,I am reminded of something I want to erase
I fought with mama,she fought with me.For nothing and I ended up proving myself a retard.
What do I do sanu I just want to be happy now.I want to live too
Hes so happy,he doesent even remember me.
I managed to get to nida's orkut.Hes so happy.
He told misha some weird story about our breakup.I was responsible for it.
Thats what he tells everyone.That I ignored him and blah blah
It hurts.He doesent love me,he has no right to false my feelings for him.
It hurts so much.My eyes hurt.
His brother is doing the same thing to nida but trust me I will not spare vicky if nida's hurt.
I was too sober to stay quiet ..my sister is'nt and I can NOT see her unhappy.
She showed me something..indirectly I caught another lie of his.Allah why is this happening?
I dont feel like living no more.I wouldve suicided but I'm too much of a coward to harm myself.
This..I dont know when I will be what I was.I just dont know.

"She makes everything look so much better,sanu,you're life."

"Shes so full of life"

I feel lonely.Again after so many days.Like hugging someone and crying.I dont I just dont have anyone.
Youre responsible
I can't trust anyone now.
Anyone.

haha see.shes crying again.Bitch!

2005-03-08T19:32:00.000-08:00

The weather is SUPERB
one thing id been fearing.the sun and the trip in the sun and sanu = all black
*buwahh*
Didnt go to school today.I plan to study.
Sanu: Im studying alot these days
Maryam: How do you manage it?
Sanu: Well,Its all so boring that Im not left with another choice.lol
I was going through my earlier entires just now,funny how I dont feel the need of a friend anymore.
I've changed.Guess I've found my own little piece of hapiness in what I have.
My grades have been rocking.After soo long.I feel so good.
Frankly speaking,I dont even talk to anyone now, Just a little hi,hello with tayyeb.
Again,Am I happy because I saw a really cute movie last night or because of the weather or because of my grades?
But one thing ..ahhh yes we're back.how can I forget him.
You know what.Hes going to come back.=)..And that is why I am happy.
I happened to land on this blogpage just now,read a guy's entry..haha cute=)
Am I smiling?
Yes but I love him.
I know sanu,me too =)

2005-03-08T17:19:00.000-08:00

and daym! Sanu, ur the biggest pimp in the history of pimpin

*Shock* alishaji,when was sanu a pimp? haww,I was just *sniff* telling you how much I love you
You broke sanu's heart..you were her most naive wife.
*sigh*..I still love those killer eyes ;)

ps: sanu's losing her "I am so little touch"