So Impossible

I cried last night,It doesent really matter because a tear or two daily is a norm,but I cried really bad last night while praying.It is hard.
Nida and Vicky are done which should be a great thing because he always took her for granted.She's with Nabeel now.I'm not saying he doesent deserve this.I'm just..I dont know
I guess I will always have the soft corner for Vicky.Probabbly because he's his brother or because I've always seen him as mine too.
I dont know,Every now and then she makes me read his mails his pleas now and I cry.I mean wtf this isn't happening.She tells me he's been crying.Again he might be faking it but I dont know.
Ahh.You're so impossible sanu.You are so not possible.
Im glad my sisters not weeping over it.Shes happy.
Again shes got so many people with her.Shes not alone=)
I didnt have anybody probabbly this is why I tell them it isn't easy or probabbly Ive lost it completely